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In the words of Xavier Rudd, "How YOU feelin?"

This is my first update for many moons, and the reason I have chosen to write is quite simple. The change that so many of us are desperate for (whether we openly acknowledge it or not) is a-tappin on our collective door. I think it's time we open up and let it in.

As one of the millions (probably closer to billions) who is in the midst of a major awakening process, I have an innate understanding that it is my DUTY to share what I feel must be shared at this time, for the benefit of not many, but ALL. No form of divine manifestation excluded, it is time, once again, for all conscious beings of planet Earth to unite in divine LOVE for the purpose of evolution into higher realms of Consciousness and Being.

I realize with certainty that most people who hear that immediately think "WHAT is this delusional and absurdly naive sonofagun mouthing about?". SO glad you asked. Feel free to openly ask directly to yourself or to me aloud any questions that pop up into that beautifully and perfectly created mind of yours.

Have you ever noticed the flawless conscious connection between the individual members of a flock of birds or school of fish? It may be observed in the way they move simultaneously as one in the same direction, or change their patterns all at once, or coordinate their movements in an intricate manner so as to establish harmony or equilibrium within the whole of their collective body. This is no coincidence, and this miracle can be traced back to one single entity that inhabits each member:

CONSCIOUSNESS.

They are all aware of what movements to take to be able to complete whatever maneuver they have been ordained to undergo, and not only that, but they move together with DIVINE precision.

Do you suppose that sort of conscious connection could occur within the human race?

I'm here to tell you that it can, AND that such a miracle is developing within our collective awareness at this very moment in time. This is evident everywhere. How do I know? There are actually MANY obvious signs. One of them is the avenue through which this particular message can be read, the Intra-net. What better or more clear manifestation of mankind's innate desire to be connected at a conscious level is there to be explored? What thought exists within the collective human psyche that cannot be found SOMEWHERE on the world wide web?

I could waste time writing fillers for all of the skeptics that may stumble upon this message, but I honestly don't want my ego involved in this in any way, so just hear me out.

What does this mean? What significance could this possibly hold for the individual at this point in time? How will this CHANGE be manifested on a global level?

For starters, the major changes will begin with the imminent announcements of the end of what can be considered the "old way" so that the "New Age" may be ushered in by all. What must be understood, and in TRUTH WILL be understood by each human alive within a very short time, is that a choice must be made on the most conscious level, within each soul. That is the determination to remain attatched to the illusion, or the most recent and currently understood 3rd-dimensional reality which is based on fear... or to choose what essentially can be considered the "light" (precisely what has been spoken of by all of the Creator's messengers: Jesus, Gandhi, Martin Luther/ MLK, Moses, the ArchAngels... the list jus goooes on and on) which is a reality that is ALL-inclusive, based on the concept of ABUNDANCE as opposed to the current system which is founded in the false belief in SCARCITY and the need for HOARDING and GREED that currently is killing off the children of Father God and Mother Earth, in the same way that the only type of cell within the human anatomy that takes more food at a time than it needs to survive for a FEW SECONDS is the Cancerous one.

So, yea, this is a pretty major concept, but if one only settles their mind within the silence that exists only in a conscious and unadulterated connection with the SOURCE of us (the Almighty and Mysteriously Loving Creator that breathed life into us and still dwells within each one of us at this very moment), then these ideas become less idealistic and infinitely more Realistic.

At this point in my message, certain souls will resonate with what has been said, and others will be experiencing an egoic ERUPTION of feelings and ideas to discredit what I have stated, whether their motivation be fear-based, based on the lack of previous exposure to such ideas (which may also be considered fear-based) or founded on the age-old problem that because these words did not come from one of the only sources they DO believe (the religious institution, corporate media, the film industry...), then it cannot possibly be accurate and MUST BE CONDEMNED. When the walls we have built based on long-held belief systems come down (i.e. Christian vs. Muslim vs. Everybody else, Democrat BS vs. Republican BS, Western hemisphere vs. Eastern hemisphere), and we all realize that the planet is evolving WITH or WITHOUT us, then each one can truly decide between Love and Fear, Light and Darkness, Heaven and Hell.

"EVERYbody-must-get-stoned."

What kind of changes will we see manifested in the physical realm? How can this concept actually change the way our civilizations behave?

Our current economic system, once again, is still relatively new, but the people who use it follow the same patterns that have destroyed each civilization that has ever conducted business in such a way.

Money. We are, from birth and for the most part, raised to believe that there is a very limited amount of it, and that it must be earned little by little with as much time and effort as can be mustered in one lifetime, so that we may die in a nice house with a tidy yard and a picket fence in a roomful of other unfortunate souls condemned to the same narrow and hollow existence.

"Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed BE thy Name. THY kingdom come, THY will be done, on EARTH as it is in Heaven."

These previous concepts simply do not align. When one thinks of Heaven, at which point does the feeling of scarcity and limitation enter the picture? WHAT is the point of believing in the human potential to bring HEAVEN to EARTH that Jesus DIED to demonstrate if we choose to wait until we're dead to even attempt to pull it off???

The kingdom of God comes not with observation: Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.
 Luke 17:21

Yep. Believe it, because that's the truth.

The old way of living, based in fear and the falsely-held belief in scarcity and the need for hoarding has come to an end, thank GOD.

Take a moment and consider what our civilizations would look like if we all took the following suggestion LITERALLY, instead of just interpreting it to suit our current way of living more comfortably...

(Matthew 6)
²⁵ “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? ²⁶ Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷ Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life^[n]?
   ²⁸ “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹ Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰ If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?

The Creator's promise is the same for all of us: peace, love, prosperity, abundance. These things are our BIRTHRIGHT, not something to be earned in human standards, with all of the time and energy that we can muster in one lifetime.

What if God's promised prosperity for each created being was already provided, and didn't have to be "earned"? What if the ONLY reason for human labor was to build a better world for the generations of humans alive today as well as those to come? What if all "work" was motivated by LOVE instead of fear of lack or intimidation? IMAGINE how far we could go in just a few short years, especially considering how far we have come in just ONE century, from ink & paper letters, cloth & wooden aeroplanes to metal alloys, jet engines (not to mention the real potential for symbiotic engines), hand-held computers and the world-wide-web... as well as one revolution after another in all of the arts and sciences!!!

Imagine how far we could go in 1000 years. The space program culminated in a relatively small number of years, once we had the technology to leave the planet readily available. It takes a considerable amount of ignorance, given what we have already accomplished, to hold the belief that we couldn't come together as a species to travel across space, EVENTUALLY. How do we begin to do that? by ending the apocolyptic cycles of warfare and domination of weaker, more docile peoples by stronger, more corrupt forces, and by releasing ourselves from all forms of fear.

I can already hear the collective ego chiming in... "Wrong. History reveals that war is perpetual. It will always be here. Utopia is impossible, becaue there will always be a stronger race who wishes to dominate and invade the territory of more passive peoples."

While it is true that history reveals patterns of warfare, humanity hasn't been around long enough to reveal its true potential. One who believes that war is a necessary and/ or permanent condition has entirely missed what it means to

"Learn from history, or be destined

to repeat it"

So you see, the patterns and trends of human bickering and selfishness, as well as the belief that war will always be present in one way or another on the planet, reflect precisely the very REASON why we still have not collectively LEARNED from OUR past mistakes. I say "collectively," because an increasingly large portion of the population HAS figured this out, and many have known for decades, for centuries, and some groups for many millenia.

Isn't it something, how each time humanity has been in its darkest, most corrupt and godless moments, the Creator has given us a messenger to teach us the way back home?

Why have we nearly always murdered the messenger?

because we weren't ready for the message.

Today, however, we are ready. So much so that WE ARE the messenger!

NOW who's amped for 2012?!

Every time one comes into the awareness of a New Idea or foreign concept, a previously dormant part of the brain is activated for the FIRST time.

The majority of primary schools across the globe, regardless of the things they claim, only serve to activate parts of the brain to enable the student to participate in what is known as "society" within the role of a consumer. That is why the first department to suffer from cutbacks in funding are the Arts, or Right-side brain-dominated studies. (For those new to the concept of the Left and Right sides of the brain and their functions, this has nothing to do with politics. Nothing. Get that ridiculous nonsense out of your head. Look that ish up fa mo info.)

I recently heard my father (on multiple occasions) speak of how it would be unwise for someone to study the Arts in college, because that does not properly prepare them for an active and prosperous role in this consumer society.

Thanks for provin my point, Daddio! I, also, still wish that you had taken more time to learn how to play the music that you love so dearly, but that wouldn't serve your bank account as much as your soul, would it?

!!!!!!It's not too late!!!!! The opportunity will be there as long as the passion remains.

Most folks, because of their classical conditioning in a plethora of out-dated belief systems, FEAR things that they don't understand, simply and precisely because they have never used that part of their brain before! How silly is this?! But when did this fear of the unknown begin? Not in childhood, save perhaps for phobias related to darkness, loud noises, etc. It began when that individual began to believe that they were All-knowing. Some people are so scared of being "wrong" that they refuse to accept new ideas, and they have yet to see that concepts of "right" and "wrong" are entirely delusional. We live in a world where there is Truth, deception, light, dark, and all sorts of opposing forces, but as far as humanity is concerned, there is no "right" or "wrong", only deeds or thoughts carried out in awareness or in ignorance of who we truly are as the offspring of the Divine. Although one may possibly be more knowledgeable than the average mule, there is always infinitely more unknown than is known, infinitely more unseen than is seen. And as far as Truth, deception, light and darkness are concerned, what happens when such opposite forces meet? Truth becomes greater, deception diminishes. Light grows, darkness fades. And So it is.

These points only serve to reinforce WHY it is so important that we, together, choose LOVE over fear. Humanity has been given a very explicit choice:

Evolve, or die.

We must accept what we do not yet know, so that progress may be made on a Personal/ National/ Global/ Galactic/ Universal level.

These things still holding true, Mine eyes have SEEN the glory of the COMING of the Lord. Truthfully, there is a new economic system ALREADY IN PLACE!!!! Thats right, maybe you heard it from me first or perhaps from someone else, but you can count on it. The details of it I will leave to others who have a better understanding than do I, but in short, no one will ever need to go to bed hungry, ever, ever again. No one. No one will ever need to fear war in their country or among their people ever, ever again. NO ONE.

Haven't heard of the mass arrests that are being conducted of those responsible for depriving the majority of the population from their God-given birthright of abundance and prosperity? Bill Gates is one of them. Believe it. Did you know that Bush and Cheney BOTH are too scared to leave the country?

Look it up.

Haven't heard of the HUNDREDS of resignations by the leaders of banks and financial institutions globally, not because they have found better employment elsewhere, but because they know they're in major effin trouble?

Look it up.

Haven't heard of the manipulation of the free market system, the educational system, the RELIGIOUS institutions, and the major investigations and lawsuits that is bringing all of this information into the light?

Guess what, the information is there within this particular method of human connection, so you should look it up. If you're content and feel better-off not knowing, that's A-Ok. You're only delaying what is bound to come to light sooner or later within your own personal bubble of understanding.

The sooner we all come together to imagine a better world, the sooner these announcements will be made, the sooner we will evolve together to reach our full human potential, the sooner the Lord's prayer will take on a deeper meaning for every. single. one of us.

To all unbelievers: You still have time, and I have full confidence and love for each and every one of you.

One last small thing...

The more you look to the skies, the less you will feel alone as a human or as a member of the Human Race.

Who's winning that, by the way?

In all love, in sincere joy, in infinite, soul-permeating promise,

bangarang.

d

DT Lindsey, CO

Much has changed since 2010. Much has remained the same. I live in a new house while I'm not at the station, as does my future wife, the lovely Miss R. We have adopted a weasel, and she composes the majority of our entertainment at the present time

 The world keeps spinning, turning and flying through the great unknown, and the expectations of so many concerning the future is nothing but an illusion. This realization is discomforting to some, as an unpredictable future tends to cause fear in the minds of those who believe that they are in control of their lives. Silly Rabbit!! Worry can and should be replaced by hope, and assumptions by the conscious endeavor to preserve faith despite all potentially negative circumstances. What right has anyone to complain or fret about a situation which they have made no effort to improve?

The weather is improving, despite occasional days of rain and the most recent snow storm in the area. Today is a beautiful day in La Push, but terribly cold. I am scheduled to stand the watch until 1400, and I hope to standby in Forks tonight with my pal Jake to spend time at home with R & her enthusiastic and spirited cousin, Miss Rebecca. As tomorrow is Becca's last day in Washington State, I would relish the chance to sit and hear her thoughts on life over a cup of coffee. I may not have this opportunity again anytime soon.

Though there have been many opportunites for me to write again over the last few weeks, the reason that I have chosen to contribute to this blog today is that this duty period marks the point in my career, of which I was aware upon swearing into the US Coast Guard, that I knew I would have to face eventually. It has not been unknown among my shipmates here, since the day that I reported, that I have made a moral decision never to bear arms against another human being. Not only do I not believe in forcefully bestowing one's will upon another, whether that be the will of one man or of the authoritative human forces governing the one man's actions, I also do not believe that weapons make increasingly bad situations better. I understand that if someone is going to harm you, whether that be with a gun or knife or fist or insult, if you hurt them first that betters your chances of not getting hurt. Or does it? Of course it would be ideal to not put yourself in that position at all, but bad things do happen to good people. Truly, worse things happen to to people who make dangerous people feel threatened. If I kill someone else before they kill me or kill someone else, does that make me a hero? Did the fact that I had the ability to kill them within my power influence their decision to act in such a way?

Would I like to see the entire world disarmed? Damn straight, dude. Is this realistic? Not right now, but eventually, I think so. Albert Einstein once said something along the lines of, "I know not with what weapons World War III will be fought, but World War IV will be fought with sticks and stones." It is with Thoreau's belief that there are "thousands hacking at the branches of evil to one who is striking at the root" that I live my life and pursue this decision not to bear arms. I have been working for the Coast Guard for nearly a year and a half and have not witnessed a single situation where the need to bear arms was even slightly necessary. If a fisherman decides to go homicidal and try to kill everyone in blue, that is a tragedy in more ways than one, but prevention of such an incident should include more creative methods than gunfighting. I understand that "guns don't kill people, people kill people," but guns don't make anything better.

Recently, I saw a news report that showed surveillance of a man in Detroit who opened fire with a shotgun in a police station in Detroit. Four officers were wounded, but the only person who died was the gunman. I am in no position to break down this incident and give my opinion about how this could have been avoided, but this man had to know that this act was going to end in his death. What would this incident have amounted to if the gunman knew he was walking into a station of unarmed officers? What this incident and the many similar situations that happen throughout the world on a daily basis suggest is that it is far too easy for hateful, dangerous people to attain weapons. The only way to stop this is to greatly reduce the number of weapons that are sold (if not to entirely stop producing firearms and ammunition entirely, even as ridiculous as that may sound to the many conditioned and literally brainwashed members of civilization). If I can be one less person who wants to own a firearm and therefore have the ability to kill easily at my disposal, then let it be so. I refuse to live in fear, and refuse to let fear of others determine my actions, and if that makes me vulnerable to those who may desire to take my life for their own reasons, then I will be vulnerable and unafraid.

A true hero is not the badass with a gun that is portrayed on the Screen, but the one who believes in a better world for every living thing and stands by the principles that he believes to be true to make that world a reality no matter what the consequences be for him.

It is for this belief that I hold and live that my current employer, the United States Coast Guard, may in their own words label me a "Conscientious Objector". This will come about after a series of interviews with administrators in Seattle who will conspire to determine my "level of conviction" in this matter. The consequences of their decision could have more than one outcome, including potentially discharging me from the service, which I joined willingly to gain hands-on experience helping and serving the people of the United States so as to make myself a more valuable asset to humanity at large.

I love my country, but my love does not stop there. This is why I believe what I believe, and forsake these beliefs for no one.




"Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are they who mourn,
for they shall be comforted.

Blessed are the meek,
for they shall inherit the earth.

Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they shall be satisfied.

Blessed are the merciful,
for they shall obtain mercy.

Blessed are the pure of heart,
for they shall see God.

Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they shall be called children of God.

Blessed are they who are persecuted for the sake of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."
Maybe pursuing these ideas as Truths makes me unfit to serve my country? We shall see...

Semper Paratus.

Orange day in La Push

Strange to think... Beginning from one hour before now, I shall be standing standing communications watch at Ja Coast Guard Stashun Quillayute River in La Bouche, Washington (State), until several hours post-sundown. Whilst I do this deed, my entire family shalt be congregating with my lovely young Lady-friend, Rachel Wappel, and Company, in Edmond, Oklahoma, the town where I didst endure my childhood and early teen years.

that's weird.

Not weird because this particular selection of persons will be dining amongst each other, which is a normal thing to do for such conversation and familiarization rituals, but weird because these people are all connected by one factor:

The current Coast Guard Stashun Quillayute River communications watchstander in La Bouche, Washington (State).

that's weird.

It would be dishonest of me to say that I am not amused by the idea of this social gathering in the name of my love for Rachel (which it totally is), but I do still feel ever-so-slightly distraught at having to be standing this damn watch at Coast Guard Stashun QYwilltuyekl Rio while my family and the woman who drives me out of my mind with no more than a glance in my direction (and Company) meet to grow as friends with the increasing awareness of what future family tidings lay ahead.

Yes, I am amused. It is an encouraging thought, knowing that in two weeks precisely from this moment, in which I am typing a "blog" (what does that word even mean?) and preparing to do a Bar Restriction Broadcast in less than one minute from now (screw it, I'll just do it right now. Stand by...), I shalt be driving hither from Dallass Texass (hehehe) with that girl sitting right next to me.

Freekin Hoyt! (Quileute term which means somethin totally radical that I don't actually know)

Anywho. So I will push on through, occasionally pulling a carrot out of my pocket to keep me occupied.

Just because you don't carry a stash of carrots in your cargo pockets to get you through the day when you have to sit at a desk for eight hours and answer phones and listen to the radio and make broadcasts that maybe a handful of people actually listen to in a day's time and update weather information and fill out logs and have people constantly come ask you where other people are although you have been sitting alone at a desk in a room and have no conceivable way of knowing where ANYbody is does not give you the right to sit there read this and make your absurd assumptions about my mental stability because I love carrots. There I SAID it. And you, you probably don't even have cargo pockets, do you. Yea thats what I thought.

It's an Orange day in La Push. We played mud football before I went to the dentist in Port Angeles this morning, and my team won by alot, even though no one could feel their feet.

bangarang ya'll!

So this is Christmas... ?

I haven't done much to prepare for the holiday season, but I am lookin for those opportunities to

"reach out and tooooouuch someone"

So far, this has been my most creative approach to the holidays, but that isn't really saying much. I cannot say what I'v been conjuring, but its just so bueno. The end of the season will be met by me with an entirely new stockpile of crafty skills.

Pow!

On an even more spectacular and inspiring note, I am now 25 days away from the moment that I have been waiting for my entire life, and shortly thereafter the word family will take on an all-encompassingly new meaning, for me. This is a very encouraging thought as I approach my first Christmas away from home.

It is good that I bring that up, because that thought has been subconsciously shoved to the back of my mind each time it bubbles to the surface. It is absolutely true that I love my family dearly, and it is impossible to imagine not being with them at this time of the year, but even so, when I am with them I am most always dreaming of something else, some great adventure or experience just around the corner that I know must be met by me alone, because my family neither understands nor appreciates the invigorating wonder that comes to me when I just "go". I have always been uncomfortable when living in a bubble, but this truth has only been realized in recent years, and I want this Christmas to leave its mark on me as the year that I fully embraced the gifts that can't be wrapped, those that surface in the moments when you make yourself vulnerable and maybe even slightly uncomfortable so that someone else may be blessed by your actions and your servitude.

The opportunity to serve, to live Jesus style again even if only for a short time, to surprise someone who has never seen or heard of me in their life, this is what I want for my Christmas. I want the opportunity to share a story about a Christmas that I experienced without having to say "I" or "me".

My prayer for the Christmas season is that when the opportunity to share the gift of the Spirit of Jesus presents itself, even in a subtle manner, I won't hesitate for a second to be that "good and faithful servant".
It is so easy to think of ourselves, to be wrapped up in expectations and traditions and comfort and egotism that we overlook what really matters right now, and although we may even say that "Jesus is the reason" we spend this season far away from the places where Jesus would be found if he were still walking among us today: in the slums, on the streets, with the lame and old, sick, crippled, cold, hungry, hopeless, abandoned. These things don't sound like Christmas, but that is Christ.

Maybe I will be able to say that these things added up to more than just words on a computer screen, maybe not. Maybe I will spend as much time looking for the hopeless as I do with a cup of coffee and a good book? Maybe not. Forks is usually too drunk to care, so who knows if I'll find what I'm looking for there? Maybe in Port Angeles? Rich white folks need lovin, too. There is a free dinner at a church on Friday nights in PA, but I haven't made myself available for that even after knowing about it for months. Maybe I'm tired of acting alone? Maybe I don't care about this stuff as much as I want to?

Maybe not?

Whatever the truth is behind my motivation, I truthfully have a desire to act. Comfortable living during the holidays is great, but those are not the moments that change lives forever and ever, and make a lasting impression on the souls around us. It would be dishonest to say that these ideas come to me when I am already uncomfortable. For instance, I have a space heater at my back and food in my stomach at this moment. There was some coffee a while ago, but it tasted terrible. I am even so comfortable that I can complain about my coffee right now! I feel so far from my potential as a servant, so far from fulfilling my calling, but at least I recognize these things? Now I'm frustrated. Look what I've done.

Maybe I should just stop.

Happy Christmas, Merry Hanukah, Cheery Kwanza. If I left anyone out, please smile and know you are loved.

bangarang.

Indirectly Attentive

I submitted this for an assignment in a Learning Fundamentals class that I am taking. Sounded "me" enough to put it up here, too.

bubububububangarang.

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The more I consider the style with which I direct and focus my attention, the more clear I see that this style depends entirely on whatever task I am performing. When I drive around the lake near my house, my attention is focused on staying between the lines of the road and maintaining a speed that will not attract the attention of the authority. When I take the bus, my attention is directed towards the patterns of waves in the water, or the scope of colors and how they interact. I often strive to see the big picture, but I do this by seeing how each small part works together. Imagining how one small particle or piece of what I see affects everything surrounding it greatly amuses me, and I tend to find myself wondering how the world would be different without the seemingly insignificant piece of the picture. Learning or discussing information with other people can be dangerous, as I have the tendency to believe that I know at least some truth behind all things, so I constantly have to take time to consider how the knowledge that I have came to me. One of my favorite things to practice, as I go about my day, is "throwing away" the beliefs or preconceived ideas that I have about the world around me. In this way, I am able to begin taking in information with a fresh mind, or an "empty canvas." Often I imagine myself as a small child again, and this enables me to learn about the world around me without the spectrum of words and labels that society has attatched to the perception of nature. This week's lesson has helped me to understand how integral my imagination has become to my own learning process, and I am very thankful for that.

My attention is constantly wandering. This makes it difficult to have a consistent conversation with anyone, whether it be because I am unable to stay on topic or because my attention has led me away from that person entirely (though all they see is me nodding and seemingly quite interested). For this reason, I am unable to have conversations with people based on topics that do not interest me. Upon learning this about myself, I have also learned that I have never once regretted maintaining silence while others around me share ideas. After many years of speaking out on things that I do not know, I have learned that it is always better to acknowledge what I do not know, and then to begin from there with an open mind.

"gimme some sugar, baby."

I see You

I learned today that, when we learn, not only are our minds engaged in the thinking process, but so is the rest of our body. Quantum physics has already proven that everything is connected by an extremely intricate and rapidly-communicating web of information-energy, so I don't need to go into that, but I'd never really taken the time to try and understand just how quickly the parts of our bodies communicate with each other and react accordingly.

Of course, we can take this idea and stretch it from merely applying to our physical bodies to see it work on a much larger scale (such as the cosmos, or humanity at large), but what good does it do to dwell on how we are all connected if it makes no difference in how we live our life? The law of attraction teaches us that when we communicate to the world around us, there is reciprocation. The more that a particular idea is expressed to other people, or simply to whatever one may choose, the greater the impact of the response. What a thought!

I'v been engaging the Spirit for some time now in reference to the woman of my dreams, and not only has she materialized and drawn near to me periodically, she has become the yin to my yang and the completion of my own realm of awareness. It is one thing to think back on a song in the morning and hear it in the afternoon, or to be reminded of a film and watch it unexpectedly the following day, or even to recall an old friend one day and bump into them on the street the next week, but to seek and know unceasingly that your treasure, your goal and purpose is out there among the stars waiting for you to call its name is a mi-racle.

This was not intended to be a chronicling of my great romantic passion for Rachel, although that should not be neglected, nor was there any significant reason that I sat down to lay my thoughts out this way; however, when the opportunity comes to understand that wisdom, knowledge and insight allow you to take charge of your life by creating something observable not only to others but to one's self in particular, to dismiss the thought for something requiring less imagination is petty. I don't want to be petty. Maybe pretty, but not petty.

I don't write about my life happenings much. That is not to say that much does not happen to me, but rather too many crazy/unexpected/impossibly unanticipated and quirky things happen in my day-to-day that there is nowhere to record the madness properly. Today, I woke up and got on a boat. My shipmates and I went out on the water, had some fun, came back. I did some work cooking/cleaning/washing dishes/homework/hygeine/that stuff, worked out to the Fellowship of the Ring, watched a beautiful and awesome snow-fall in La Push (which may do its part to keep me in La Push come tomorrow morning).

Needless to say, today wasn't the most unusual or exciting, but it's leading me to tomorrow. One of these tomorrows, that girl who is right now driving in the snow on one of my favorite roads in the world leading from Colorado Springs to Fairplay with her loving family and contributing to my madness from being separated at such a distance from there to here (THAT girl.) will be riding with me from Dallas to the Olympic Peninsula to live and thrive beside who? this guy.

I don't know if the world will end soon. I want to say probably not, but who am I to assume anything? I'v heard some crazy ideas and seen some thought-provoking patterns play themselves out across the globe, but our knowledge is limited for a reason. Contrary to popular belief, life is more about faith than knowledge. Whatever happens in the next few years makes no difference to me as long as she's here. I am not dependent on any dream or vision or idea of co-habitation for my happiness, but dude I am in love and I'm a sick lost poor confused little boy without that Woman, and the time is nigh for me to make her Know that she is the Queen Heiress Goddess of Utopia Planet This and I'm gonna do it right by her, by her family, by her Creator, by the stars in the sky outside the window until I'm just another one of them, so help me God.

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On Utopia.

There is nothing more difficult to plan, more doubtful of success, more dangerous to manage than the creation of a new system. The innovator has the enmity of all who profit by the preservation of the old system and only lukewarm defenders by those who would gain by the new system. (Machiavelli, 1513)

And though the philosopher may live remote from business, the genius of philosophy, if carefully cultivated by several, must gradually diffuse itself throughout the whole society, and bestow a similar correctness on every art and calling. (David Hume, 1737)

All of us who are concerned for peace and triumph of reason and justice must be keenly aware how small an influence reason and honest good will exert upon events in the political field.
(Albert Einstein, 1954)

Once again, the wheels in my head are spinning out of control. When trying to find Reason and Morality in the political structure around me, I'm led only to the conclusion that such things have been abandoned, as they neither generate mass consumption nor do they bind the individual to a lifelong dependency to society at large.

Wouldn't it be nice to wake up, eat a meal consisting of food produced directly by us and the direct community in which we dwell, practice hygeine in a manner that didn't require the purchase of FDA-approved goods manufactured and shipped in from God-knows-where, put on warm clothes designed, hemmed and stitched by ourselves and our children and go about our business doing only what is necessary to live well today?

Some may consider these ideas narrow-minded and impractical, and I would accuse those people of being Lazy Asses. There is no substitute for imagination, no matter how easy or how popular new & shiny and regardless of monetary benefits. Those who stand in the way of the progression of the Human Race, to which we all belong, believe it or not, are also the slaves of comfort and convenience. If one cannot properly realize that each life determines its own course, than such an individual has no right to be in a position of authority or influence.

What do you think, Bert?

"It is only a slight exaggeration to say that mankind constitutes even now a planetary community of production and consumption. I have now reached the point where I may indicate briefly what to me constitutes the essence of the crisis in our time. It concerns the relationship of the individual to society. The individual has become more conscious than ever of his dependence upon society. But he does not experience this dependence as a positive asset, as an organic tie, as a protective force, but rather as a threat to his natural rights, or even to his economic existence. Moreover, his position in society is such that the egotistical drives of his make-up are constantly being accentuated, while his social drives, which are by nature weaker, progressively deteriorate. All human beings, whatever their position in society, are suffering from this process of deterioration. Unknowingly prisoners of their own egotism, they feel insecure, lonely, and deprived of the naive, simple and unsophisticated enjoyment of life. Man can find meaning in life, short and perilous as it is, only through devoting himself to society. The economic anarchy of capitalist society as it exists today is, in my opinion, the real source of evil." (Albert Einstein, 1949)

I catch your drift.

HOOW LONG WILL THE MADNESS PREVAIL??!

"God in the safe, Ford on the shelves... All of the advantages of Christianity and alcohol; none of their defects"

bangarang.